Life ain't always beautiful

I've been on a complete roller coaster when it comes to job hunting. I had signed up to sub and booked a few days at the school where I did my student teaching. Monday I got two calls for interviews, one for pre-k and one for k. I heard back from the k interview and I didn't get it. I was pretty disappointed since it was at the school where I did a k practicum last spring. They were nice enough to call and let me know at least. I got another call this evening and I have an interview for a k job tomorrow. Pre-k is my absolute last choice so I'm hoping I can land this k job instead. At this point, I'd take anything that comes my way but I know nothing about pre-k.

I've been on a spending freeze since I am truly about as broke as I ever could have imagined I'd be. If it weren't for my family's help, I would've already lost my car and been without electricity. I'm feeling a little better about things and I'm out of the being angry at God phase. I can't control the situation, but I can make the best of it. It's been really hard. I'd give my right arm to be able to afford to go places and do things again, but right now I can't even afford basics like food and gas. It's true that you don't appreciate what you had until it's all gone. If this isn't rock bottom, I don't want to hang around to see what that is.