First Day of School

Today was the first day of school and it wasn't how I imagined it was going to be at all. What I had in my head since January was my freshly decorated classroom full of my students for the year. Sadly, I don't have any students and still don't know if this is going to become a reality for me. I worked tonight at the house of beer and sports and enjoyed my rather large piece of humble pie. I try not to think about it or let it get to me and I know it's not over yet. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be even though I did shed a few tears.

The best way to describe how I feel right now is to imagine walking through a dark house that you know well but it's not your own. You can somewhat make your way around and you kind of know where the light is, but it's just a matter of finding it and turning it on. You may bump a shin on the coffee table or trip over a rug, but when the light comes on it'll all make sense. I'm just waiting for the light to come on.